V - Part of me is saddened to read about your loss; not so much of the woman, Y, but of any true friend. As the self-proclaimed oldest member of this LC community, I've noticed that true friendships become more precious and more scarce as the years accelerate and blur past me. In my experience, losing a Lover does not always mean losing a friend - just most of the time. Only You know when it is time to protect yourself and your powerful heart from a partner who cannot allow you both to thrive. It sounds to me as though you gave this situation/romance 110% and when the time came to stop the leaking from your soul you did not break the connection with callous indifference. Part of me is astounded at the gracious way you are handling it. You are not striking back - or being cruel - just straight forward with a profound sadness/kindness/gratitude that is a rare and remarkable characteristic in modern human heartache.
While I have been traveling among the tribes I have thought frequently about all of you. Nosferatu's absence leaves me wondering. Rob's intellect leaves me fascinated. Andrea's imagination speaks volumes and leaves me laughing and perplexed. Frerekhan causes me to question the presence of those who came before me (the time sequence in mental photographs). Not to mention the combined talents and verbal gymnastics of Eurora, Proxy and Tobot. You are a critical part of my balancing act. Sweet Dreams...GZB |