been busy lately, not much time for thought.
how regretable.
anyway, i tend to think that the only concreat reason to be on this earth that we have found thus far is reproduction. anything else is just us making up something, which is OK. but, by this only benchmark, a lot of inteligent people seem to be failing the test. perhaps its me, but it seems like intelectuals, the group most suted to complex inter-personal issues, is the group that gets laid the least. on the other hand, joe dumbass trailor-trash seems to get plenty, allthouigh he lacks to ability to manage such relationships (refrence Jerry Springer). perhaps its becuase we (intelectuals) tend to have higher standards or perhaps we are more interested in the intelectual component of love and lust. indeed, a love for intelectual angels on issues is a way to define intelectuals anyway, so why not in this arena?
i guess what im saying is, i know there are smart and attractive women out there, and i furthermore see myself as being not completely out of their class. yet sex, and relationships, seem to simply not exist in my universe. its not that they are beyond my reach, its that they simply are not there. i wouldnt even have some sort of foothold to get into carnal sex if i wanted to.
yet, at the same time, i think that this siuation is common for those of my age and intelect. this fact isnt really much comfort though. |