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Internet non-detritus
[8273] by "FrereKhan" (bowerbird.qut.edu.au)   on Fri 04 Jan 2002 19:11:59     reply ] 
People who delight in sensual pleasures are at a slightly increased risk for addictions (substance, sex, love, etc.). So keep yourself in check. Careless sex, too much chocolate, and fine wine can all be wonderful in reasonable doses.

- Crappy online personality test

I beg your insignificant pardon? Keep yourself in CHECK? From LOVE? What?! And what the hell is a REASONABLE dose of careless sex?!?

The day I hold myself back from love because I'm worried about being dependent on it is the day I cease being myself. I'm comfortable with my dependencies, no matter how much pain they cause me.

FK
retrospect
[8263] by "Veavitdpoh" (syr-66-24-0-28.twcny.rr.com)   on Thu 03 Jan 2002 22:12:22     reply ] 
Sherman, set the wayback machine for late middle school (hrm... six years ago? Fourteen? Ye gods.) In my German class, I wasn't studying much German... I decided later that my troubles with foreign language were due to an overspecialization in English, but that's neither here nor there. There was this girl, let's call her Red Paint (several injokes and a play on words later), who spent several German classes tormenting me in stupid and adolescent ways. Later on, she got better, and we shared a few fairly neutral conversations. I was even invited to a birthday party once, where I actually got flashed - there was a bra involved, c'est la vie - and stupid things happened because of stupid people (including stupid youth of stupid me). Soon after, she cooled and I wrote her off as an overall bitch.

Today I ran into Red Paint in the video store. We had light conversation while my rental was rung up, and she was nice enough. In thinking of this, and of her, and of me, I realized something. She SO had a crush on me. Classic attempts to get attention, eventual realization and overtures, and a final decision that the opinions of her friends was more important than what she felt. She held a torch for me all year and I never realized it. God! She wasn't a cheerleader, but she wasn't Britney Spears (the epitome of ugliness) either. I wish I'd realized... at the time, though, I was quite firmly at the "everybody hates me" stage, along with a nice severe case of clinical depression, and was in no state to figure something like that out.

It's way too late now, of course. But in a rather masochistic way, it feels kinda good to know that at least somebody was attracted to me. Retrospecticus!
Holiday Bordom
[8161] by "Omagus" (adsl-63-206-120-29.dsl.snfc21.pa)   on Sun 30 Dec 2001 02:03:59     reply ] 
havent chatted it up here in a bit, thought i would let you all know im not quite dead yet.

allthough, the difference is hard to tell right now. i think we have winter break to remind us that having some structure in our lives isnt that bad a thing, and that sitting on your ass for days at a time can be bad for you.

however, for my birthday (17 now) i got Metal Gear Solid 2. i dunno if you people are gamers or not, but this was fun for me. i sat down and played it for 15.5 hours in 2 sittings, managing to make it through in a real time of less than 24 hours. i didnt sleep at all that night. just another accomplishment for my gaming resume. for full disclosure though, i was playing at easy, meaning i have a bit to go before i can say i am a true master.

all my freinds are out on vacations, ive read 3 books, im still avoiding doing my homework (though i suppose i will start it tomorrow), i cant get any weed and i havent much anime to watch. its getting ugly.

and i have a sore throat to boot.

oh well. if this is the worst ive felt in a long time then i should prase my life for being so kind.

i did get to go to Cancun, Mexico, a week before break started (parents got me out of school for a week, partly cause theyre cool, partly cause they messed up the scheduling) and that was very cool. open bar and no real drinking age. didnt really get into that until the last night or 2 though, as I didnt have anybody to drink with until then. the in-resort disco sucked, but beat having nothing to do.


i guess thats what im getting at. everything i do lately has been becuase i have nothing better to do with my time, its all just sort of chipping away at my life. i know i should be doing something or learning something usefull, but insted i just sit arround and wait.

oh well, as i said it could be so much worse. i know some day i will dream for times like this. im just being a whinely person becuase im lonely, which also why im reaching into the digital void for someone to chat with (at?).

need more gaming, more anime, more fun.
and something to get into.
Merry Judeo-Christian Bastardization Of Egyptian Mythology, Kiddos!
[8032] by "Veavitdpoh" (syr-66-24-0-28.twcny.rr.com)   on Tue 25 Dec 2001 09:23:31     reply ] 
Yeah, I got the Christmas spirit thang down.
For Your Enjoyment...The Sequel
[7916] by "Nosferatu Dallion" (pppa25-resalehampton2-1r7127.dia)   on Mon 17 Dec 2001 20:03:37     reply ] 
Ahh my love life troubles never cease.Today she decided to move in with that old bastard.She came to my house to say goodbye to my family and such and to introduce us to that bastard.I would not even come out.So of course she came to me.I said "Leave me the fuck alone!"She complied with a pretty sad look and maybe some tears I think.I am not sure if I feel happy or if I feel guilty but I know I feel pretty miserable now.
More
[7895] by "andrea" (ppp-62-11-133-202.dialup.tiscali)   on Sun 16 Dec 2001 09:09:45     reply ] 
There's more, and it's a nice strip made by Veavitdpoh, dealing more with my current lifestyle than he could imagine (well, after all we talked for 50 minutes, live Usa-Italy).

There's more, and it's the new, friendly site which still sits on my hard disk waiting for the requisite bandwidth and spare time to be uploaded.

There's more, but I can't remember what it is: it's probably a cookie, a song, or just the full stop I am gonna type.
Today's forecast
[7855] by "proxocast" (proxy2a.lmco.com)   on Fri 14 Dec 2001 10:44:05     reply ] 
Today the Beam of Judgment will be directly above our fair city at 13:45. Of course this means UV shields will be lowered from 10 minutes before to 10 minutes after--so make sure your children or free-range elderly are bundled up today with extra lead.

Be advised: the Federal Bureau of Investors announced 60% chance of surgical Beam Firings into the metro area, so we please keep your distance from people different from you, and stay below the Fifth floor during the firing interval, to make sure that Investors have a clear shot at eliminating the Foreign Cancer which hides within our basements during the firing interval.


Recycle, discard
[7824] by "FrereKhan" (bluebird.qut.edu.au)   on Thu 13 Dec 2001 19:17:18     reply ] 
Rabbits in Alabama:
o eat
o sleep
o mate
...repeat

Dylan in Brisbane:
o eat
o sleep
o work
o worry about self-direction in life
o worry about pace of progressing relationship and hurting self and others
o turn into mindless zombie of bureaucracy
o despair over pervasive apathy in life
o assume foetal position
o attempt to read fulfilling book
o sleep
o ...repeat

FK
Insano infiltration
[7790] by "FrereKhan" (bluebird.qut.edu.au)   on Thu 13 Dec 2001 00:07:57     reply ] 
If you haven't listened to NSANO's latest albumn, you don't know what you're missing out on. Check out

http://untiltled.gif/nsano/

Some guy from Italy sings with them.

Alos an extremely funny thing:

Hyper fork!

The hyper fork is like a regular fork except it is hyper.
Operation remains the same.

FK
Non-rhetorical semi-circular fudge
[7714] by "FrereKhan" (202.83.85.96...)   on Tue 11 Dec 2001 04:13:28     reply ] 
Please explain the delicate alchemy of self-confidence and how to properly strike the balance between this and a relationship.

Feeling insecure in a relationship seems to cause nothing but pain. So should we take our relationships for granted?

How can I be confident in myself while I care so much for another person that she's all I see? How can we act as though we are capable of anything, when the smallest movement can change and hurt so much?

She knows about this board, by the way. She doesn't realise how much it means to me, so she won't read this.

How can dirty water become so fucking complex?

FK
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